I’ve never been stopped before, never felt afraid of leaving something behind, never been conscious of the wonderful people around me. I’ve never felt this grateful for the things I have, for the people in my life. You may not know, but I’ve moved around a lot, lived in different places, met new people, and been through many experiences. But not once have I searched for this, this that I found in the smallest of places, I found love, confidence in myself, appreciation for others… I never looked for home.
“You never know what you have until you lose it.” That is so true, wise words passed on through generations, and it’s still here, words stuck between societies forever. We’re always taking for granted what we have; never stopping to admire the beauty of the world around us, the people in our lives. We take for granted everything we have, why? Because we have it, it’s already ours. It’s not until these things start slipping away that we realize how grateful we should be, we realize things could have happened differently, we realize we can easily lose the things we love the most. And it’s until then; until we start losing; that we wish we had everything back the way it was.
Things are falling from my hands; changes are clouding my horizon, clouds of realization, clouds that bring a rain of thought within them, storms of torment and regret. Why now? Why do I see until now that what I have here is what I want? Why didn’t I see it while the sun was shining bright in the sky? Well, because I’m oblivious to the facts, like every other human; and like every other human… I’m afraid, terrified of the future before me, wide eyed in the face of changes.
There’s only one question burning its way through my thoughts, obligating me to choose between two paths that will mark my life forever. Take it or leave it? I’ve realized that its times like this that knowing becomes a curse, and being ignorant is living in bliss.
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