I was blessed to grow up in a family where love is sweet, where you could feel it in the air, warm and toasty, like a steaming cup of hot chocolate on a cold winters' night.
My dad used to go to Home Depot a lot, and my sisters and I loved to keep him company. We enjoyed looking at all the beautiful bright lamps, the colorful doors, and the marvelous windows. We chose dozens of paint colors for our rooms that would never be painted, we chose everything that we liked the most, door knobs, rugs, refrigerators... we pretended we would buy it someday, make our own dream house; surprisingly, we were happy knowing that it wasn't true.
My mother trailed along beside my dad, she was always patient, going after us even though we unnecessarily covered every corridor, choosing things and asking tons of questions about unknown objects for us.
We live beautiful moments every day, moments that seem completely ordinary, but it's those small moments that are the most significant to you when your life changes, when even the ordinary is all gone. That kind of insignificant and small family times are what come to my mind now that I'm far away, now that I know that time won't repeat itself no matter how hard I try.
Remembering makes me incredibly sad, I shed tears while I go through memory lane; but it also makes me proud and happy, my tears make me grateful for having a family like my own, for being raised between lovely details.
Today I went to Home Depot. I'm older now, I'm wise enough to stop pretending, and I no longer live with my parents. I missed my dad insanely, I wanted to run through every corridor without caring for the stares, I wanted to look at my sisters in their eyes and see the same excitement and wonder glittering on the surface, I wanted to see my mom's smile behind my back, I wanted everything that I can't have anymore. Time is irreplaceable, time is cruel, and time won't ever let you go, it is unchangeable, and it will always make you miserably homesick.
"Ordinary moments can become extraordinary, simply by spending them with the right people." I do not remember the mind behind the quote, I believe I read it in a book last summer; but now I see the real meaning, and as I understand, I also cherish my ordinary family, the ordinary moments we spent together, and the extraordinary memories that I'll keep in my heart forever.
I miss you.
